find me on the internet i never seem to leave silently wishing for something more to do, when all my hours have closed and the daylight fades into distant clouds electronic wires carrying me accross oceans, continents... into worlds unknown and unexplored in all of this vastness... could there be another?! could there be... lost in this micro world because i don't want to face the reality i form into my life... all the pain, and lost... all the waiting and anexity here it doesn't matter here i won't remember ********** to you lost, and deserted... to all you heathens... i give a new religion- life, i have found in the breath of the ocean mist... that has elevated my spirit there is nothing so impossible to dreamers who never truly foresee their own dreams being just dreams- nothing will be destroyed i will find meaning... and lead my flock to pools of crystal clear knowledge all these visions... sewn deep into the fabric of time the words pouring into this new bible and testament... spirtually guided... my words meaning nothing to you you are no longer enlightened merely lost in the lies of the material world... you would stone me as soon as you would convert... but if you could look so deep into my eyes... (the windows of the soul) could you still deny what i saw that day? when my world was forever changed... i... strucked by lightening, crushed my preconceptions and awoken a dormant light "like a firefly, my light shines from within" even now i feel the power deep within my chakras turning inspiring these words so that i remember... and it doesn't matter the feeling... it's always been there... i was blind once too- it doesn't matter the burning... knowledge is pain- never will i turn back to be claimed as a pilar of salt, like Lot's wife, and all the people i know who say they are my friends only to betray me when suitable- my path and destiny is as clear to me as my future is in my dreams... i fear nothing... i know what i must do time is short, and there is no going back ***** distorted voices guiding my paths demon out of hell... i wish i could look back, on everything left behind... lost life, lost wishes... forgotten dreams light at best the fog that covered this misconception until the veil of night was lifted and all things are seen for what they are dying embers of a charcoal fire heat given freely for the price of a few breaths from the wind of my spirit never extinguished... ******* visited by the spirits, of long dead friends and relatives... breaking the molds of former claymakers, lost crafts from beyond whispered words of poetry in my ear so i could type them here forgotten time wears no distance killing mortals finds false justice lightening from heaven fire from the gods... purifying man of imperfections lost will and little ambition forget the words that made you cry and the laughter that never died and you will forget these reasons to live such simple reasons to live- ****** time can't mean a thing... forced upon meaningless creatures gone without purpose- i tracked... and abandoned my sight to some idol that stole it from my eyes... i fell to my knees jism on my pants... enlightment has only one fee only one submission... lost in this world, astranged... like a newborn, who's eyes first behold this sphere, poised to elevate my mental but never properly prepared- 2 months, the fire burnt in my chest, a pain i'll never forget... i learned that summer the meaning of friendship, and the denile of fate all lost and gone to shit... in the depths of my spirit- (c) mysterious productions feb. 1999 all rights disturbed ..