when will i learn to cry properly with teardrops and salt water not razor blades forcing me to excrete my blood cat s claws down my face you are IT to cry without clawing and missing the symbolism of my metamorphosis possession and i will cry all night if i have to electrocute myself with water on a keyboard i will cry until lives have turned until you remember eternal recurrence DON T YOU SEE but you ve forgotten taken my last photograph and lit it on fire slid it into your right nostril and burned me out of your brain i will cry all day if i have to weak and pale white and ugly as lead with sorrow mercurial i will laugh if you want me to i will break a thousand promises made in the privacy of a hot shower with only wet hair as a witness that i would maintain my pride but i have no pride the beasts are growing tearing their way through my hairless skin and pop snap rip rend until i am gone at last