encircled like a child in your arms curled around myself in the hangar door when the touch of lips relents to the touch of hands it echoes through the rooms and bounces off the starlight painted on your walls in ultraviolet beauty that blisters my shoulders malignant on my knees the skirts will not protect my legs i love another or so you say and so you know just so you know you re right i trust in him to stay with me more than i trust in you he loves me only because he needs me and i feed him my soul through the cage s bars in the dully silver ornament of my wrist manacles are unnecessary when you carry a grail rest your head upon my abdomen rest your hands upon my breast then turn your head to the mirror if you can bear to watch yourself in a caricature of worship you will see me smiling in wistful passion but the dance of my hands in your hair is a dance of faith and i love another for he consumes me and he will hate me and teach me synchronous brutality but if he cannot he will find a man s body with which he can conquer me and then i will learn who my beloved is