s@S$$$$$ $ $$$$$$$$$$ irago $ $$ $ $ $$ Worth $ The ground far below calls out my name The bullet in the barrel calls me just the same My veins scream for the knife next to my hand I think we re all caught in the biggest scam called life Why do I feel worthless when I ve been a success My achievements mean nothing with my soul s emptiness Why should I want to die when I have so many goals Why am I not the one who has the controls to my life I ve tried to conform to society s every-changing whims But I m a her and everyone still concentrates on hims I ve watched my weight and worried about my face But still no one notices if I m ugly or pretty these days of my life I cannot be Caucasian however much I try And it s always worthless to wonder why I just know that I m not good enough for them Would it hurt me much if I decided to end my life I m a coward though I m afraid of pain I wonder if my family and those so-called firends will cry in vain As I did when I lost those who represent The love and acceptance that won t be spent on my life The sun commands a smile as it shines on me Yet I wonder how much longer I can keep my sanity But I ll keep on living and search for those Who will put meaning back into my soul and into my life