--- i give up this is useless it is getting me nowhere i am thinking of just going away leaving it all behind it would probably be a lot better off without me this is not me music sound sadness that is me i want to shutdown i want to retreat but i have met so many friends who i don t want to lose a tear drops his eyes close and he is gone - beatle --- the curtain slowly rises and i am on stage again i say my lines as before only this time the words are hollow and they mean nothing something is lost in time there was a time when i could make the world weep in sadness laugh in joy love in extacy people don t care anymore it is all television and violence and anger and death people marketing others pain cops rescue 911 theatre hold life and i have been pulled from it i went back to my old school to talk to my teacher my friend thinking back to how much she really did for me She taught me about myself She showed me the joys of humanity and the sorrows But they were all beautiful Up there on stage I went back to thank her But she was gone no goodbye nothing his shaking hands his dying heart his last breath - beatle --- i hate it i want to kill it this part of me that hopes that dreams that wishes then maybe i would be happy - beatle --- what is it for when i go to bed at night to sleep to dream to live the life i wanna live without the screams my life is nothing but an empty shell washed up upon the shores of shattered dreams i tell slowly going crazy going down going mad insane getting angry at the things that are bad slowly gathering strength at the foot of the bed are all the nasty little things inside my head blood dripping down the walls of my mind slowly staining all the memories it can find time melts away cotton candy in the rain slowly soaks my head slowly clears my brain i can t take it i don t need it i don t want it anymore i don t want and i don t know what it s for i can t take it i don t need it i don t want it anymore i don t want and i don t know what it s for so in the morning i lie awake in my bed and what s left of my life swirls round in my head i reach for the knife as i hear him say i m sorry i didn t mean your life to be this way well sorry pal this is how it s gotta be you see i can t live with an enemy knife slices down and cuts through the skin in my life there s no word for sin take the lifeless body and push it out the door it s plain to see he won t need it anymore i ve given him everything i wanna be opened his mind set his soul flying free i can t take it i don t need it i don t want it anymore i don t want and i don t know what it s for i can t take it i don t need it i don t want it anymore i don t want and i don t know what it s for - beatle --- Do you consider yourself sane And if so what are your reasons for believing that you are Because you conform to someone else s version of sane Because you ve never known anything else Because you are afraid to admit you are not sane If everyone in the world was just as sane as you would the world be a better place something to think about beatle --- life is a string being rolled out of some strange ball of yarn all colors all shades all fabrics and you are weaving it into whatever pattern you feel like weaving it in jagged edges sharp teeth lost corners frayed sides sharp scissors cut beatle - taken from TabNet the adopted bastards network ------------------------------------------------- in cyberspace color does not matter people that think it does should not be here until they can understand that it doesn t If Mr Racist knew who he was talking to (all the ethnic people on here non-whites etc etc) he might not stay around for very much longer you see i have dealt with people like Mr Racist before i am not superior to him genetically but my mind is scared cowards afraid to learn about the world they are afraid to lose what they never really had in the first place using religion as a weapon and a reason using made up ideas and rumours as fact scared scared frightened little children falling down a hole of hate people are trying to help them out but they won t let them because they are afraid of the different color afraid of the different belief afraid of the different god afraid of the world afraid of themselves cyberspace is for everyone to explore in peace and harmony and oneness it is an extension of one awareness of the world people who are afraid to learn about the world do not understand this they think it is just another media for them to broadcast hate and fear if all you have in you is hate and fear then there is something wrong don t hide it take it and throw it on the ground in front of you and confront it I am not a bigot If he wants to hear my opinion I will tell him my opinion But all the racist bigotted people I have ever met are afraid to experience new views new ideas and thoughts Afraid to learn They are society Society must be taught a lesson beatle --- who am i i am the magician i will make your life flash before your eyes and will you see what is right with it and will you see what it wrong with it and will you try and fix it and will you try and build on it you are all poly-dimensional mandala s so bend bend adapt the sphere is the best shape it is round soft moveable attractive one oh mother will you forgive us beatle --- sorry sorry for trying to make a difference sorry sorry for trying to show you the way sorry sorry for hurting your feelings sorry sorry for breaking you down sorry sorry for trying to put you back together again sorry sorry showing you the faults sorry sorry for not showing you the good sorry sorry for putting you down sorry sorry for not putting you up sorry sorry for hating the system sorry sorry for wanting to change it sorry sorry for not changing sorry sorry for trying sorry sorry for you sorry sorry for me sorry sorry for us sorry sorry for goodbye - goodbye mist - beatle